Don’t judge me in a hurry. I got married to my husband a virgin and I was a pure church girl without hidden secrets. When we had sex the first time, I didn’t feel pain like how other girls did. It didn’t even feel like sex to me. All those moans and screams I fantasized weren’t real.

I told my husband how I did not enjoy having sex and he said that every girl he had sex with in the past didn’t want to leave him. My husband said he was a champion in that area. So I concluded the problem was from me. Soon I started checking out porn videos online to know how it feels to get to that sexual height they call “Orgasm”.

I realized that the men were well equipped while my husband’s D***k was  like the tip of an HB pencil.That night we decided to have sex again. You can’t believe this man went in for like 3 times and slept off. Apart from the fact that he is on the small side, he can’t even  last for a second.

I got irritated and started watching porn. I didn’t want to cheat so I figured out I could even please myself more that my husband would. Sex started getting more interesting and adventurous to me. I stopped complaining and let my husband slide in whenever he wanted to. Then after I go to the bathroom and make myself feel like a woman.

I feel really guilty for my actions, but I like it and I can’t stop now Because It’s already a part of me. What can I do?

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